Photo courtesy of Stephanie Webb

By Stephanie Webb • 

Fight for you
Fight against the indifference and the determination to assimilate
Fight against your self-intolerance and the rage against your individuality
No, you don’t want to
I understand
You feel trapped in this existence
Lost in the mindset of normalization
Yes, your efforts mean something to you but no one else
They applaud your endurance while they mock your inner strength

Maybe, just for a moment
I can do what you want, I can be what you need
No one ever told me that I was wanted like that
You hear the desperation from your own lips
Your words fly out of your mouth like caterpillars
And transform into butterflies of self-loathing from those who defeat you
No, they can’t defeat you
You are and you can be, but…
Wait, you don’t want to
It’s not even worth it
Just shut the lights off, stand alone
Hide in your cave, cry in the dark
There’s no point, you say
There’s no point to me, nothing I want, nowhere I’m needed
Your feet scrape the bottom of the tunnel
You see the light but it’s hard, so hard, to push yourself up
Once again, the ruckus swarms your sanity, urging you to break free
Who cares, they say, who cares and what’s one more
There are thousands like you, millions like you
They smile for the camera and die on the streets
Don’t listen
Trudge through and understand that your essence is their weakness
Those who punish are those who fail to comprehend
No, you’re not great on their scale because their scale is small
Finite, both in time and in effort
One gets this if one does that
Not you
You are the crush of apathy because you have warmth in the depths of your soul
You hold it dearly, lovingly, and no one can attain your truths

You see the lies and they hate you for it
You realize that you are beyond capabilities, beyond limitations
Existence offers so much more than status retention
You know this, so fight
Fight when it’s cold and you hate everyone and everything
Stand for yourself when others will not stand for themselves
But see your unity in their frailties
We are all human, but you have a calling
You are who you were meant to be
You must remain only who you can be
So fight for you
Fight for you

Stephanie Webb is a Native Austinite, despite how people think a native Austinite should look. 

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